My journey to hell: How depression hijacked my soul, and how I finally wrenched it back.

This is an excellent, courageous article. Please read if you or a loved one is dealing with depression.

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An optimistic start

‘Life is 10% what happens to you, 90% how you react to it.’ (Charles R. Swindoll)

This is one of my favourite quotes and life philosophies. But what if you lose control over how you react to it?

Check phone. Again. Nope, he still hasn’t texted. Heart lurches, stomach flips and brain tries desperately to recall That Nice Thing He Said which means that He Definitely Will Text. It’s tough being an optimist, clinging onto those elusive gaps between the rain, and trying to ignore that you’re getting drenched.

But I wouldn’t have it any other way. I believe in life, and people, and the power of positivity. I appreciate how beautiful and precious life is and I walk around saying thank you for things – whether it be an amazing busker at a tube station or a fun weekend spent with friends. I appreciate how lucky…

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What is depresssion… a really great video to share with your loved ones

“Like a broken arm, depression is not something a person can just snap out of or brush off. The animated video below, by Helen M. Farrell and Ted Ed, attempts to clear up some of the misconceptions and spread awareness about causes and treatment options for depression. It also gives tips on what people can do to support loved ones who live with this mental health condition.

So next time someone tries to say depression isn’t a medical condition, just go ahead and send this video their way.”  Melissa McGlensey, The Mighty


Enough about me, tell me what you think about me…

Me, at 4, the year before I started school. I may have hated writing even then…

This post started out as my About page, but then when I got done, it felt more like a blog entry so here it is…

Where to begin? I’m a (mumbletysomething)-year-old woman. I am married with two cats. Oh, and I attract weird cats. I think it’s something to do with my personal pheromone chemical imbalance (as opposed to my BRAIN chemical imbalance) but so far I’ve had no luck getting anyone to do a scientific study on that. I’m sure when I’m in the throes of denial and sick of writing about my illness (and it WILL happen) I’ll write stories about my weird cats and then you can comment with stranger stories about your weird cats and we can all commune in weird cat parentage nirvana.

I hope to use this blog to help fight the lies that depression tells me and if you’re reading this because you or someone you love is being told lies by depression, I hope what I share here helps… however that manifests.

That being said, I’m also using this blog to fulfill my life-long dream of writing. (OK, maybe not life-long. I have to admit I really HATED to write in grade school… and high school… and college.) But for a while now, I’ve wanted to write so here I go. Do I hope you like it? Of course, I’m a human being. Will I stop if you don’t like it? Probably not. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion but one thing I’m trying to learn through this exercise is to rely on my inner voice (the good one, not the one that lies to me,) follow my heart (sounds trite, but I’ve found it to be a very good way to move through this world) and not internalize the external (that includes the negative AND POSITIVE opinions about my writing, my observations, my truth.) Is this making any sense whatsoever?

Anyway, if you’ve read this far, thanks! And thanks for coming along on this journey with me. It really feels less like boarding a plane and more like stepping of a cliff. But here we gooooooooo!

An introduction…

Jenny Lawson Quote

After 30 years of denying that the major clinical depression that has periodically disrupted my life is anything more than a blip on the radar, I’ve finally decided to embrace the suck in order to integrate this into my life and deal with it in a more healthy, less compartmentalized manner.

I was inspired to begin this blog by Jenny Lawson, The Bloggess, who talks about her mental illness (and giant metal chickens and joyful taxidermy) in a hilarious blog and two (so far) books. I went to her book signing  for  Furiously Happy yesterday and she signed my book with #depressionlies — which is so true. So I decided to see if the URL was available and was available, so here we are.

I hope to use this blog to help fight the lies that depression tells me and if you’re reading this because you or someone you love is being told lies by depression, I hope what I share here helps… however that manifests.

That being said, I will also be using this blog to post random weirdness that I need to get out of my head that may or may not have anything to do with depression but hopefully will be relatable and somewhat amusing, if not hilarious. I don’t think I’m hilarious. Funny? Maybe… Let’s just go with somewhat amusing and fun to watch.